Hang in there!! Yes, I have been in your shoes, and so has
everyone else with this, but that is what makes us special. You
need to search within yourself to find love. It may sound crazy
to you, but I have been there before. I was unhappy, had only a
few close friends, and no boyfriend or kiss either. I thought I
should just end my life at that time. Well times have changed. I
am 26 now, married and 2 beautiful little boys. But with this, I
was still unhappy in the begining of my marriage. I had to
finally learn to love myself for who I was, before I could
totally give my love to another. Take a look at yourself,
interists you may have, what dreams you have for your future -
then make it happen. I have gone through so many emotions, like
you are now, please believe me when I say search inside yourself.
I realize your self confidence has probably been beaten down by
people who are cruel. I have pity for people who do this, becouse
in the end they will suffer. They have given themselves
limitations by treating others this way. They don't realize not
only have they missed opportunities to make a new friend, learn
new things, ect. In the end the "cruel" people will
suffer the most. Ironic isn't it. So don't do anything drastic,
we don't want to lose such a beautiful person (inside and out).
Everyone is beautiful in his or her own way, no one is perfect.
And that is what makes life so special. You will see this if you
try to find it within yourself. Please, if you want to talk,
please e-mail me, I will help you through this, you are not alone
and nor will I let you feel alone!!
eads@caves.net Stacy